Balance

Right now, I should be paying bills. I really, really don't want to be doing that! (Can you tell?) I'd rather be playing with the boys, out running errands that keep getting put off (Jacob's jeans are becoming high waters...it's getting bad!), reading a book, or hanging out with friends. Unfortunately, it's just not in the cards for today!
I think that the hardest thing about being a stay-at-home mom is finding balance. Trying to get a handle on what the kids want, what they need, what you want, what you need, and adding the hubby into the whole mix...it can be overwhelming. There are never enough hours in the day. Unless you completely give up your right to any time to yourself...which I keep having to remind myself is not good for anyone! However, I still struggle with the fact that it seems selfish to need that time. To put off chores so that I can read or just have a few minutes of peace and quiet. Or to put them off because someone needs to be played with today. Guilt is a hard thing to escape...especially when you are the one piling it on yourself!
I must remind myself daily that dust is not dirt. It's my new mantra! I must constantly prioritize and focus on my job title...stay-at- home mom. Not housekeeper, not Superwoman. Just a mom. One that knows there are only so many hours in a day and would prefer to spend them happy...even if it means that some things get left undone. So, I am off to help with a puzzle rather than finishing the bills as quickly as I like. Because the bills will be there later. And the puzzle may not!